So….hi I haven’t wroten in for ever. Unlike past post I’m not going to say whats happened just a few main points.

Alot of bs from my dad. Whats his problem? Not only that but not real step dad and what does he do nothing.

My ex went out with the girl that tried to ruin my life. Didn’t happen, plus been thinking I have an upper hand on him muahaha. Kidding, but really I do.

On a sad note I forgot my anniversary with Barry. But apperantly he did too sense he has yet to bring it up wonder how long it’ll be ’till he notices. *sighs* Years!

My sister is a bitch shes one of those girls that is fake emo/scene but is really preppy. I also think shes going to be a slut when she gets older.

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I want Barry. I wish he was here. It would make things so much easier.

We could go out and do stuff or just stay in and cosy.

I miss him every day and every hour and every minute. I’ve become a love sick puppy. But its so not fair. I love Barry I really love him!!!! Its just not fair that his so far away and even if he wasn’t theres the whole age thing. I love him soooooo muchhh!!!!!!! With all my heart. Age doesn’t matter but the fucken distance is pestering. I wish we could be together forever. No, not sounding stalkerish or obsessive. But I mean forever as in it was ok for us to just sleep with eachother (again NO! Not sex, just cosing and sleeping) without the drama. Shes too young for him and we know the sorts of things people do in bed or slut/whore afterwords its ridiculous why can’t two people who love each other just sleep (SLEEP) together.

I just want to feel his arms around me and his hand brushing away all the my worries and problems.

I’m living in such a fantasy land.

Is it so bad to be in love?

Why does age matter?

Can relationships be more then just sex please?

Oh, I don’t know. I don’t even know if he feels the same way. Its so sad. :’(

Hey,

        So I just got woken up.

                           Cause I had a phone call.

I don’t get phone calls.

I hate phone calls.

I hate phones,

but I love mics.

Am I freak?

So, I stayed up till 7am not meaning to

I mean I ditched Ricky at 5 pm.

An hour after M ditched me.

And an hour after B had ditched us (M and me.)

My friend, Ali(shorten name sounds prettier then full ha ok shut up Lex. Still half asleep. Shh.)  called and shes like wanna go to Kohls and I’m going wtf. Wtf. WTF! 

Cause I’m a dork socially.

I don’t like to hang out with people.

I mean its fun but causes to much stress for.

Well no, just when people ask, I always say no.

Always, ALWAYS!

Mum’s all you should go and I’m all like but I’m asleep.

Plus no money so why go to Kohls.

And the main reason of alls wtf!

I mean Ali (haha) is nice but (excuse that I think changing her name loses the affect of who she is. *burst into laughter* Yes I know I’m a big meanie. Shut it! ) we aren’t exactly friends.

I mean band geeks hate me.

Not hate, but like I’m not all buddy buddy with them like some people.

She however thinks we are buddies.

I guess kind of but I don’t know.

*hits head on table* Stupid Lex!!!! Think!!! THINK!!!!!!!!!!

I’m going to go think.

- Love ya
-Lex
P.s I’ll publish later with tags.
 

Oh yeah, hey, 

HAPPY EARLY 4TH OF JULY!

-Lex

Messages
Earth To Bella says:sorry i was day dreaming about my story

Earth To Bella says:ive changed it three times now

Earth To Bella says:started out with werewolves then thought yuck werewolves n changed it mythological not that any of the settings or facts be right but talking about the past i changed the plotline without knowing talking about a mysterious guy then about wat i was going to write about in the beginning which was well a girls life so i changed it again then or now its about two best friends secrets, boys, n well….

Earth To Bella says:fitting in to who u r n wat u want which sounds like another girl book which is now scratched off

Earth To Bella says:we want unique n everythings been done plus im not smart enough to know actual facts maybe i should make my own planet

Earth To Bella says:hmm….fantasy meets reality BEEN DONE DAMN IT GRR

…..Alexa