So today’s horoscope says this…

Gemini

Getting through the day may be tougher than you thought it would be — especially if some rather distressing news arrives. Just don’t try to avoid the situation. It won’t work, so be brave, meet it head on and deal with it. That means no calling in sick to work, no asking to leave early and no dragging yourself through the day pouting. Be brave, be meticulous and take care of business like the mature, responsible grownup you are.

Really grown up? Me? Damn it! Yes, I did think it would be easy seems it won’t my darling family will object to that. Deal with it? I won’t I’m having a party and no one is coming. Deal?! Hah…..

So, I haven’t updated in a while and though I would love to talk about interesting things like in the latest Brookers video (ha she’s figuring out the sad truths about the world/life). I won’t because I’m tired and just over the world thrilled with a hint of loopy in the mix.

Yeah, so things have been ok well as ok as usual a little tidbit better but not enough to keep.

I’m just going to throw some comments. I have no clue if anyone checks this anymore. I know someone that doesn’t beside me. This is why I won’t feel bad saying this HE SUCKS. Lol.

Yeah, I don’t know anymore about my male acquaintance. His getting on my last nerve, and yeah it’s still the same guy that I’ve been with for a year and 7 months. But, oh my god, how, he is driving nuts lately. See it’s not really him but what he does or how he acts. He never seems to want to do stuff with me be with me it’s always like “I have to this….”, “I‘m tired…..”, or “I have to go…” It’s like he never has time for me anymore or wants to make time for me. I just don’t know anymore how he feels towards. I know that I love him and if he would just make his mind up it would be helpful. Lol I even gave him a free pass. (If you don‘t get that too bad!)

Anyway moving on…I felt loopy now I’m depressed

Random thoughts

Has anyone ever gotten that feeling of being watched or like seeing someone or something hiding in the shadows and you know their watching you but you can’t make them out? Maybe I’m just going insane officially or my imagination is playing jokes on me but I’ve been seeing something in the shadows. It watches me like a guardian angel, but it freaks me out. It’s not the same feeling I get when I think of ZR or OL, um….don‘t ask just say [angels: guardians]. It’s darker, like the shadows of the night watching waiting to pounce, though I know better that it won’t do so. Oh yeah it’s not human, it’s not even adult, yet it chills my bones. I see it at the corner of my eye but when I look closely its gone. It’s just a flash. But no it’s not bright it is black. I don’t know if it’s a he or a she. It’s a feline, a panther, I think like I said I haven’t gotten a good look. Its eyes glow yellow and its dark, pitch black. I see it watching me behind things or run past hedges. But mostly it’s just hiding staring then poof. I really think I’m losing it.

On other news of the loopy train, I think I’m dying. No, I’m not saying I want to die or suicide. But its also, at least I don’t think it’s a disease, hope not. Lol, but like I was going to say I always wanted to die young. Morbid I know but romantic and fantastical and I want to know about death. Gosh, I sound so Goth and emo [tional]. But there is just something interesting about death that is so appealing. Plus, if possible I would love to be one with the night AKA vamp.

Any way I say I think I’m dying because I feel like something some part some tidbit of me is crashing collapsing. I think its part of growing up how dull. So yeah some parts of my brain feel like they’re dying or my body or something. I just feel different, and it’s so weird and freaky. Sadly to say I feel familiar to this sense. Ok, crazy moment 3 blog. But for every stage in my life there’s like a new me. A new soul that takes over (lol it does help with categorizing remembrances) my body. Does that sound nutty or what? But no really, throughout my life it feels like stages, each with its own name. But it changes me though it’s like a new soul, I know all the stuff I’ve done or been through, but it’s kind of like saying goodbye to that life. As I got older after losing my primary second [soul] I didn’t pay as close attention because the rest where like little and now I’m coming up to the another big change, marking me childhood age done.

Its scary thinking I’m 17 turning 18 soon and I haven’t accomplished anything with myself. I don’t even know how to fucking do laundry. I’m a mess, an absolute…loser. Lol, but I’m still young and getting there and I don’t consider myself ignorant just unmotivated towards life. Someone better figure out the point because so far I got nothing. I want to be somebody, go to college, get a good job, have a family, but I want so much more. Ha-ha, no not money, though money does make dreams come true (sadly). I just want to know the answer to all those stupid questions that float around like flies mocking the human race. I just don’t know my feelings are in the freezer these days and I’ve gone tad nutty. I think it’s the whole unable to sleep business.

Ok, so this officially my Goth, vamp blog.

P.s.
 Bored so random bolds & Italics. YAY!!!

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Half Edited

Hey

        So no diary just Fast Facts and thoughts, also no grammar just typing and if it gets so sloppy I’ll edit it. Also just THOUGHTS! So no flow just me.

• In the alley with the….-  Bad Cops Bad Charities – Play Radio Play
• I vote in 2008 and I’m a democrat and politics is what people like to read so here you go!
• Also I think I’ll vote for Hillary Clinton. Have a problem tell me why?
• Also why are christians all republicans. They don’t give a crap about politics their followers do what the goverment says and get screwed over.
•  Ha, LIBERTY IS OURS TAKE IT OUR LEAVE IT
• I believe if you want to be a hater, racist, or anything. Your an ass but its your right and I’m not going to stop you because untill you learn why its bad or give me a good reason to act like that your not worth it.
• Crap, is crap. Life is crap. But if you don’t follow your heart your never going to be anything but crap.
• What is with religion and people saying god wants you to give love but always think your religion is better then every one elses. why? whats it worth? i mean really! All religions have like the same basic principles and why do people have to be better then someone else to feel good. God says love and what do we do fight wars because of his name. Wow, that sounds so right. Peace is happiness and tell you all figure out that all you really want is for people to understand you theres not going to be no right way to justify what your doing.
• Also what is up with kids these days. I’m 17 I know I sound ignorant but come on look around my century was like the beginning of the end seriously kids like 7 or 8 are talking about things that are idiotic. Girls are wearing make up and doing adutrery stuff and at 12 we have druggies alcoholics and parents. What kind of planet has this become.? I’m scared for our future. I miss our great ancestors even if their life was harsh and had. They were intelligent
• Why is everyone so interested in Paris Hilton? I mean really who gives a fuck! Some rich girl is going to jail where she gets her own huge cell with a jail mate she picked. OMG!
• Why don’t people talk about things like Darfur? or starving children around the world? or about people in Africa and Asia that need our help?
• Why do people think its ok to have our life styles? We live in a materialistic world where people are going to buy stupid things they won’t use and wasting the low supply of oil and resources we have. Then we’re going to other places to take their supplies. So we do it over and over again to ourselves. Do people not realize that we’re killing our planet and ourselves and we’re still not happy!
• Why don’t people look around them?
• Why?WHY!!!!!
• Sometimes I wonder whether this is what was planned for us and what it was like before and how it could be different
• Although I like saying all this I’m still just like the rest of u…..doing nothing and being an ignorant fool.
• I’m still young and this is why I want to be a lawyer to help people.
• I’ve been on the other side where people got screwed by other people and now I want to help people that been screwed because I’ve gone through it.
• Life isn’t meant to be easy by I damn well won’t let it beat me down.
• I only want happiness for all of us, whoever it is. Can’t we all just get along? That may sound naive, but it is me. I’m NAIVE IGNORANT STUPID IDIOT AND MUCH TOO YOUNG TO UNDERSTAND. But atleast I’m me I trust my soul and it tells me we’re all the same even if people don’t want to believe it. We all deserve happiness, don’t we?
• On lighter news or ramble…..
• LOVE IS EVERLASTING SO HOLD ON TO WHAT YOU GOT. Family, Friends, or Lovers.
• My party is tomorrow!
• I trust that I won’t grow out of this stage, if I do slap me!
• I’m so anti-social and I love it
• So i’m lonelly but I have my family and their my best friends. How cheesy is that?
• People ruin things BUT YOU GET OVER IT.
• I’m nothing without my laptop *huggles it*
• All MUST listen to “Lean on Sheena” by The Bouncing Souls!
• So I spend like no time yesterday watching youtube videos and when I came back I watched all my subscribed and I’m getting bored with having alot of elitest youtubers. I never really thought about it. So anyway got someone for me to watch!
• Dead Or Alive the movie is good. I haven’t seen it fully. But its not totally awefull. Best part is the most hilarious one with the daughter and dad where he walks in and the other girl in the daughters room in bed with the daughter is there.
  “Dad get out I’m in my underwear”-Daughter
  “Its time to fight”- or something IDK -Dad
  Blah Blah Blah
  “You should sleep naked like I do”- Other Girl
  “Ah….I’ll leave you and your friend to it”-Dad
  He leaves and daughter kicks OGirl out of bed and OGirl has clothes on.
  If you don’t get it, its suppose to sound like the other girl was saying their girlfriends to like freak out the dad. Kinda IDK it was funny you must see.
• My legs are a sleep wonderfull. *Gets up and Jumps around*

I think this entry is done for, Tootles Love!
~Lex
PS. Sorry for dullness:P
p.S Leave COMMENTS!!!

Hey,

Its been a while!!! I thought I’d update!

I’m 17!!! My birthday was Monday, June 4th. All I have to say is I have to get my head straighten on. I’ve been thinking about what I’m going to do with myself. That way, I’m not a bum. So I though I need a job! I told my mum and we figured we’d ask Cody (My stepbrother) if he could get me a job at the pizza place he works. Sense his my stepbrother and the closest thing I’ve had to a brother. Also cause his an assistant manager or a manager which means he could probably get me a job easily there. Hopefully! 

           I’ve been thinking that I want to travel go on a road trip during the summer I turn 18. So I want to save money for that.

          Not much has happened. Besides me being a lazy bum. Which theres nothing wrong with that. But it makes me feel useless.

        I’m lonely too. No sister (She is at a friends house. Not that you need to know that.) No Barry (Who knows where his at.) So I’m bored too. Loneliness + Boredom = Bad!!!

       Also to anyone who views this blog (I don’t really know why you would view it. Its a bit dull) comment back.

      I want comments for…..~LIST TIME!~

COMMENT REASON LIST
1. Feedback (Like is it stupid boring or just BLECH)
2. Advice (Should I fix something? Should I talk about the world? Politics? Animals? HELP)
3. Relationships(I want to meet people plainly so comment and I’ll reply and we could be friends or enemies whichever you perfer)
4. How Can I help you comments (I like giving advice so have a problem ask moi/me and I’ll help you)
5. Feedback for YOU (Comment me ask to view your site, cause I really don’t know how to make friends on this so looking at your site might teach me or just make me like yours.)

I think thats it. Hehe SO COMMENT. I know I sound desperate. Sorry!

Love ya,
Lex o.O
P.s I sound like a nutcase!

So, I’m bored and tomorrow is my birthday. I’ll be 17 and well so far this weekend has been shitting. I haven’t gotten any suplies for my party. I don’t want to do it for it and its this coming saturday on June 9th. I feel tired and dead. Frankly, I’m just so sick of bullshit. My sister got lectured by mum on friday about the movies thing. She cried and then the next day it was like it hadn’t happened. She isn’t grounded. She isn’t anything. She went out with Kylie (Our little neighbor, shes adorable.)  She talked on the phone with her best friend Kayla who got her in trouble to begin with. She is still allowed on the com and its just BULLSHIT! I mean really. So mum and me where arguing and I was the one that was painly in trouble for shit. Oh yeah for saying I didn’t want my sister at my party and telling mum how to raise her. But seriously my sister is so disrespectful and rude. Why should I invite her at all? Cause I’m forced to so finally mum listens to me with no arguing and she makes my sister apologize to me because of how stupid and bratty and disrespectful she was to me. So yeah, I’m done talking about this. I thought Sense I was bored I’d add some pictures to my blog. So here you go.

ERROR ERROR

This is our home in secondlife. Barry made the textures and built it. It has no furniture yet.  Barry made me take it off. ASS!!!

 This is my icon, hehe.

Wow, adding photos on here is weird. They won’t go where you want them to go. So, I’ll have to figure it out. Also I don’t know.

Bye now,
Lex
P.s. I’m sorry for the suckiness.

Hey, Lex here!

             So whats up? Well not alot here I guess. Hmp, I don’t know its all kinda weird. My lifes been up and down and turnaround. Lol btw (By The Way) thats from Hellogoodbye. I love them. Thanks Spencer. I fell in love with them after hearing at his myspace. Did I mention before? I hate myspace.

             So not much has happened. I don’t think, if it has I really don’t feel like talking about it AKA I don’t care.

              My birthday is this Monday and it should be thrilling. No not really so far no presents and if any. The party is that Saturday on June 9th.

               Then on June 11th Chuy (his nickname aka Josive? Jesus? w.e) is going to be staying my family for a week. I’m nervous cause we grew up together and his my age and I haven’t seen him in forever. I have to share my room with my little sister. Which is very YUCK! But what can I do. I’m just a girl.

               So lukettylwillie, I’ve fallen in love with his videos cause his acting is awesome and he reminds me of the bear. So I really want to make youtube vids and I’m so jealous of him. But what can you do? Not to mention I looked at his stickam (Ha, I am not a stalker. I commented his vid and he replied and I was like he seems nice maybe I should talk to him and I perfer stickam to myspace even though I use neither. So I looked for it and found him. Ok, slightly stalkerish but I’m just nosy and really lonelly when Barry isn’t around so its really sad. But I think I’ve become antisocial and don’t know how to socialize this is why I used to use TrueChat. Anyway!) I was looking at his stickam profile and I fell in love. No not with him. With the song in his profile. AKA Bittersweet Symphony!!!! It ROCKS!

               So yeah. Hm….what else to talk about. Lol, I’m boring.

               Oh yeah mine and Barry’s anniversary for a year happened. We did nothing cause that week we were having a grouch fest. Still kinda are. I have my friend and Bear well its his time of the month too. Lol! He doesn’t have a friend but he is kinda like  having sympathy pains if you think about it cause I have it too. Usually tho its a week before my friend then happiness. So we aren’t grouchy anymore. Just finding time to be with eachother is slightly difficult recently but we’re working it out. Alls good. Really. I hope it is. I don’t know. We’ve been watching films. Great ones yesterday. Some scary funny and way out there. They really are fun to watch with him though. I love Mister Snookie. Hehe. He said his going to send my a present and I know he has it but he need a box so its nothing to get here for a while yet. I’m counting a month. It pisses me off and he knowas and then it pisses him off and then we argue and then we both feel bad and we apologize. I guess we have an argueing routine cause I do it so much.

                        But its cause A) I admit it I like pouting and slightly argueing B) He pisses me off and C) If we don’t argue its strange for me, I mean I can’t tell him things that I can’t say directly if we don’t argue. I don’t know I like arguing its part of a relationship. I love him and I don’t do it to hurt him its just…..I’m a nut case. Plain and simple. But his patient and loving and I appreciate everything he does for me. Theres no one like the bear. I adore him but its just who I am. Not to mention if he tried to change who I was……we wouldn’t be together cause I believe if you love someone even if they have things like arguing you’ll stick through it cause their worth it. I want the bear to feel like I’m worth it. I don’t know if I am. But I try to change myself a little to fit him even though I’m not good at change but I try. Cause my bear is so worth it and so much more. I wish he knew.

                 Oh yeah, I sent him the link to this cause the whole suicidal thing scared me. I was sad depressed mad and I don’t rememeber why anymore. I have multiple personalites not really but I have very strong emotions. I’m slightly bipolar so yeah. Drama MINX.

                  Hehe, I’m so sick of talking about me. So I’ll finish talking about me soon and talk about something else. 

                 So school is over. I passed my OGT’s (Ohio Graduation Tests). I got two advanced in Math and Social Studies. Also I got Accelerated in Science, Writing, and Reading AKA the three subjects I suck at. So I didn’t need to take my Algebra2, English10, American History, and Biology exams. Then the art teachers decided if your a sophmore and passed all your OGTs you are excempt (or however you spell it) from that exam. Then Yinger (Keyboarding teacher) said that too soo…..
THIS IS MY NORMAL SCHEDULE
Per. 1 – Alg2
Per. 3- Spa2 (Spanish)
Per. 5/6 – Bio A/B (Advance Bio)
Per. 7/8- Eng10
Per.  9/10 -Keyboarding
Per. 11 – Intro to Art
Per. 12 -U.S History
THIS IS THE EXAM SCHEDULE
Friday June 1st
Per 1 – Per 1/ Alg2
Per 2 – Per 3/ Spa2
Per 3 – Lunch
Per 4 – Per 12/ Hist
Monday June 4th
Per 1 – Per 5-6/ Bio
Per 2 – Per 9-10/ KeyB
Tuesday June 5th (Also Last Day Of School)
Per 1 -Per 7-8/ Eng10
Per 2 – Per 11/ Art
THIS IS MY SCHEDULE
Friday June 1st
Per 1 – NO EXAM
Per 2 – Spa
Per 3 - NO EXAM
Per 4 – NO EXAM
Monday June 4th
Per 1 – NO EXAM
Per 2 – NO EXAM
Tuesday June 5th
Per 1 - NO EXAM
Per 2 – NO EXAM

             So, you see I go or went to school today for my only exam aka Spa. Which I speak fluently and was EASY. I went for Per 2 and left after it and that was my last day of school cause I don’t have to go on Monday or Tuesday which is very woot woot !

That it about my life, lets talk about someone elses or facts.

My sister went to camp wilson and she had fun. Woot!

Barry knows about my blog and he thinks it feeds me. (the layout)

Mum is cooking dinner and yelling at me about cleaning the house during the summer.

Kelly, my dog, has disappeared. (Not really.)

Brookers videos suck now.

I know I’m not suppose to mention me but my hand hurts of typing. I should stop but I like the way it feels when you type your thoughts. Moving on….

This blog is stupid. I will call it that.

Can I go now! PLEASE! Grr… youstupid blogg.

FTljusdfgbkjghnfjdgdesfjndfhdrgb….sorry I lost my mind its been killed by this never ending blog. Wheres BARRY!??!?!?!

Goodbye now! Have a great day!
*creepy smile*

I love you all very much,
Lex

P.s. I say so alot.
p.S. Its alot of bullshit said.
P.s. I like making list, I’m sorry please forgive me.
P.s. Sorry, for the long list of tags I have for this blog in the categories thing, boredom.