So today’s horoscope says this…

Gemini

Getting through the day may be tougher than you thought it would be — especially if some rather distressing news arrives. Just don’t try to avoid the situation. It won’t work, so be brave, meet it head on and deal with it. That means no calling in sick to work, no asking to leave early and no dragging yourself through the day pouting. Be brave, be meticulous and take care of business like the mature, responsible grownup you are.

Really grown up? Me? Damn it! Yes, I did think it would be easy seems it won’t my darling family will object to that. Deal with it? I won’t I’m having a party and no one is coming. Deal?! Hah…..

Hey everyone, 

So, I just saw fiveawesomegirls and although its exam week, the term is ending, I barely see Barry, and I barely have time for homework(cough cough lazy)…….I’M JOINING THE FIVEAWESOMEGIRLS BOOK CLUB!!!

Ok, so the book club is to help Kristina read 50 books by the end of the year. I thought that was a great challenge, I’m dying to. Plus it’ll help me actually read Advance Placement – AP Literature books in track. While letting me create a countdown list. So excited, I know I’m a dork. But I love books so much. Lets all get involved and doing something. Books are way more then what you think.

5 Reasons Of Why To Read Books

1. Fun
2. Other Wordly/Imagitive
3. Creative Ideas and Thoughts to basic standards of life and things
4. Intellectual stimulation and knowledge
5. Wide range of topics to read on, no limitations

Books I’ve Read So Far -2008

1. Blue Blood

Books I Need to Read

1. An Abundance of Katherines by John Green
2. Then He Ate My Boy Entrancers By Louise Rennison (Cofessions of Georgia Nicolson)
3. Startled By His Furry Shorts By Louise Rennison (Cofessions of Georgia Nicolson)
4. Pride & Prejudice by Jane Austen
5. Uglies by Scott Westerfeld
6. Pretties by Scott Westerfeld
7. Unknown Book (I forgot the title)

I’ll add more later. Maybe

The video…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LUGXwiSCu-o&rel=1

So, Yeah, you all should join.

So, I haven’t updated in a while and though I would love to talk about interesting things like in the latest Brookers video (ha she’s figuring out the sad truths about the world/life). I won’t because I’m tired and just over the world thrilled with a hint of loopy in the mix.

Yeah, so things have been ok well as ok as usual a little tidbit better but not enough to keep.

I’m just going to throw some comments. I have no clue if anyone checks this anymore. I know someone that doesn’t beside me. This is why I won’t feel bad saying this HE SUCKS. Lol.

Yeah, I don’t know anymore about my male acquaintance. His getting on my last nerve, and yeah it’s still the same guy that I’ve been with for a year and 7 months. But, oh my god, how, he is driving nuts lately. See it’s not really him but what he does or how he acts. He never seems to want to do stuff with me be with me it’s always like “I have to this….”, “I‘m tired…..”, or “I have to go…” It’s like he never has time for me anymore or wants to make time for me. I just don’t know anymore how he feels towards. I know that I love him and if he would just make his mind up it would be helpful. Lol I even gave him a free pass. (If you don‘t get that too bad!)

Anyway moving on…I felt loopy now I’m depressed

Random thoughts

Has anyone ever gotten that feeling of being watched or like seeing someone or something hiding in the shadows and you know their watching you but you can’t make them out? Maybe I’m just going insane officially or my imagination is playing jokes on me but I’ve been seeing something in the shadows. It watches me like a guardian angel, but it freaks me out. It’s not the same feeling I get when I think of ZR or OL, um….don‘t ask just say [angels: guardians]. It’s darker, like the shadows of the night watching waiting to pounce, though I know better that it won’t do so. Oh yeah it’s not human, it’s not even adult, yet it chills my bones. I see it at the corner of my eye but when I look closely its gone. It’s just a flash. But no it’s not bright it is black. I don’t know if it’s a he or a she. It’s a feline, a panther, I think like I said I haven’t gotten a good look. Its eyes glow yellow and its dark, pitch black. I see it watching me behind things or run past hedges. But mostly it’s just hiding staring then poof. I really think I’m losing it.

On other news of the loopy train, I think I’m dying. No, I’m not saying I want to die or suicide. But its also, at least I don’t think it’s a disease, hope not. Lol, but like I was going to say I always wanted to die young. Morbid I know but romantic and fantastical and I want to know about death. Gosh, I sound so Goth and emo [tional]. But there is just something interesting about death that is so appealing. Plus, if possible I would love to be one with the night AKA vamp.

Any way I say I think I’m dying because I feel like something some part some tidbit of me is crashing collapsing. I think its part of growing up how dull. So yeah some parts of my brain feel like they’re dying or my body or something. I just feel different, and it’s so weird and freaky. Sadly to say I feel familiar to this sense. Ok, crazy moment 3 blog. But for every stage in my life there’s like a new me. A new soul that takes over (lol it does help with categorizing remembrances) my body. Does that sound nutty or what? But no really, throughout my life it feels like stages, each with its own name. But it changes me though it’s like a new soul, I know all the stuff I’ve done or been through, but it’s kind of like saying goodbye to that life. As I got older after losing my primary second [soul] I didn’t pay as close attention because the rest where like little and now I’m coming up to the another big change, marking me childhood age done.

Its scary thinking I’m 17 turning 18 soon and I haven’t accomplished anything with myself. I don’t even know how to fucking do laundry. I’m a mess, an absolute…loser. Lol, but I’m still young and getting there and I don’t consider myself ignorant just unmotivated towards life. Someone better figure out the point because so far I got nothing. I want to be somebody, go to college, get a good job, have a family, but I want so much more. Ha-ha, no not money, though money does make dreams come true (sadly). I just want to know the answer to all those stupid questions that float around like flies mocking the human race. I just don’t know my feelings are in the freezer these days and I’ve gone tad nutty. I think it’s the whole unable to sleep business.

Ok, so this officially my Goth, vamp blog.

P.s.
 Bored so random bolds & Italics. YAY!!!

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Hi, hey, w.e

TOP NEWS

Sorry I haven’t written I have been busy. Chuy’s family came to stay and I had no alone time. The left wednesday and personally no offence to anyone BUT Thank God! I was beginning to lose my mind. So I’m sorry for not updating.

Other News or Whatever

I can’t really write right now. But I wanna say thank you for my frist real comment. (AKA people should comment more =p). Thank you for the 300 total views.

Also I will write more life facts blogs but right now its 1:12 am here and I’m tired and I want to sleep.

New NewZ

I think I have a plot line for this story blog I’m writing so if I get bored and have time after updating here of course I’ll add a new blogs and such and work the kinks and start on my story.

Well, I love you all. But I’m going to pass out.

-Lex
P.s. – Barry is sleeping and I want to too.
p.S. – I miss talking in my sleep and sleeping with Barry.
P.S. – I think I have a sleeping disorder.