So today’s horoscope says this…

Gemini

Getting through the day may be tougher than you thought it would be — especially if some rather distressing news arrives. Just don’t try to avoid the situation. It won’t work, so be brave, meet it head on and deal with it. That means no calling in sick to work, no asking to leave early and no dragging yourself through the day pouting. Be brave, be meticulous and take care of business like the mature, responsible grownup you are.

Really grown up? Me? Damn it! Yes, I did think it would be easy seems it won’t my darling family will object to that. Deal with it? I won’t I’m having a party and no one is coming. Deal?! Hah…..

Hey everyone, 

So, I just saw fiveawesomegirls and although its exam week, the term is ending, I barely see Barry, and I barely have time for homework(cough cough lazy)…….I’M JOINING THE FIVEAWESOMEGIRLS BOOK CLUB!!!

Ok, so the book club is to help Kristina read 50 books by the end of the year. I thought that was a great challenge, I’m dying to. Plus it’ll help me actually read Advance Placement – AP Literature books in track. While letting me create a countdown list. So excited, I know I’m a dork. But I love books so much. Lets all get involved and doing something. Books are way more then what you think.

5 Reasons Of Why To Read Books

1. Fun
2. Other Wordly/Imagitive
3. Creative Ideas and Thoughts to basic standards of life and things
4. Intellectual stimulation and knowledge
5. Wide range of topics to read on, no limitations

Books I’ve Read So Far -2008

1. Blue Blood

Books I Need to Read

1. An Abundance of Katherines by John Green
2. Then He Ate My Boy Entrancers By Louise Rennison (Cofessions of Georgia Nicolson)
3. Startled By His Furry Shorts By Louise Rennison (Cofessions of Georgia Nicolson)
4. Pride & Prejudice by Jane Austen
5. Uglies by Scott Westerfeld
6. Pretties by Scott Westerfeld
7. Unknown Book (I forgot the title)

I’ll add more later. Maybe

The video…
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LUGXwiSCu-o&rel=1

So, Yeah, you all should join.

So, I haven’t updated in a while and though I would love to talk about interesting things like in the latest Brookers video (ha she’s figuring out the sad truths about the world/life). I won’t because I’m tired and just over the world thrilled with a hint of loopy in the mix.

Yeah, so things have been ok well as ok as usual a little tidbit better but not enough to keep.

I’m just going to throw some comments. I have no clue if anyone checks this anymore. I know someone that doesn’t beside me. This is why I won’t feel bad saying this HE SUCKS. Lol.

Yeah, I don’t know anymore about my male acquaintance. His getting on my last nerve, and yeah it’s still the same guy that I’ve been with for a year and 7 months. But, oh my god, how, he is driving nuts lately. See it’s not really him but what he does or how he acts. He never seems to want to do stuff with me be with me it’s always like “I have to this….”, “I‘m tired…..”, or “I have to go…” It’s like he never has time for me anymore or wants to make time for me. I just don’t know anymore how he feels towards. I know that I love him and if he would just make his mind up it would be helpful. Lol I even gave him a free pass. (If you don‘t get that too bad!)

Anyway moving on…I felt loopy now I’m depressed

Random thoughts

Has anyone ever gotten that feeling of being watched or like seeing someone or something hiding in the shadows and you know their watching you but you can’t make them out? Maybe I’m just going insane officially or my imagination is playing jokes on me but I’ve been seeing something in the shadows. It watches me like a guardian angel, but it freaks me out. It’s not the same feeling I get when I think of ZR or OL, um….don‘t ask just say [angels: guardians]. It’s darker, like the shadows of the night watching waiting to pounce, though I know better that it won’t do so. Oh yeah it’s not human, it’s not even adult, yet it chills my bones. I see it at the corner of my eye but when I look closely its gone. It’s just a flash. But no it’s not bright it is black. I don’t know if it’s a he or a she. It’s a feline, a panther, I think like I said I haven’t gotten a good look. Its eyes glow yellow and its dark, pitch black. I see it watching me behind things or run past hedges. But mostly it’s just hiding staring then poof. I really think I’m losing it.

On other news of the loopy train, I think I’m dying. No, I’m not saying I want to die or suicide. But its also, at least I don’t think it’s a disease, hope not. Lol, but like I was going to say I always wanted to die young. Morbid I know but romantic and fantastical and I want to know about death. Gosh, I sound so Goth and emo [tional]. But there is just something interesting about death that is so appealing. Plus, if possible I would love to be one with the night AKA vamp.

Any way I say I think I’m dying because I feel like something some part some tidbit of me is crashing collapsing. I think its part of growing up how dull. So yeah some parts of my brain feel like they’re dying or my body or something. I just feel different, and it’s so weird and freaky. Sadly to say I feel familiar to this sense. Ok, crazy moment 3 blog. But for every stage in my life there’s like a new me. A new soul that takes over (lol it does help with categorizing remembrances) my body. Does that sound nutty or what? But no really, throughout my life it feels like stages, each with its own name. But it changes me though it’s like a new soul, I know all the stuff I’ve done or been through, but it’s kind of like saying goodbye to that life. As I got older after losing my primary second [soul] I didn’t pay as close attention because the rest where like little and now I’m coming up to the another big change, marking me childhood age done.

Its scary thinking I’m 17 turning 18 soon and I haven’t accomplished anything with myself. I don’t even know how to fucking do laundry. I’m a mess, an absolute…loser. Lol, but I’m still young and getting there and I don’t consider myself ignorant just unmotivated towards life. Someone better figure out the point because so far I got nothing. I want to be somebody, go to college, get a good job, have a family, but I want so much more. Ha-ha, no not money, though money does make dreams come true (sadly). I just want to know the answer to all those stupid questions that float around like flies mocking the human race. I just don’t know my feelings are in the freezer these days and I’ve gone tad nutty. I think it’s the whole unable to sleep business.

Ok, so this officially my Goth, vamp blog.

P.s.
 Bored so random bolds & Italics. YAY!!!

NOT
Half Edited

Hi,

Well, I have no clue what to write about, or feel like I want to write anymore. I mean seriously WTF is with me. I feel like I’ve been drunk all week well sense Thursday and like having hang overs and etc that come with being drunk. I guess its my “friend” but I feel very antisocial that I started going on tc (aka Truechat).

I know I said I would give advice, but OMG (Oh my Gosh!!) someone help me!

Well, music helps but I need something to hear. Lol, I’m listening to Sugar Ray and its helping clear my head. I know his old but still good.

Oh good news, thinking so much that I’ve almost come up with a plot line for my story!

I’m scared of putting it on here cause I want to have a copyright law on it cause I want my writing to be protect by law .

Also been thinking that I love Barry very much. Like really love, like true love and…..well I’m scared to death of it. See I’ve only been in love like twice my whole life and the first time I don’t know if I was really in love or it was because he was my first real crush. But I’m scared because when its all over I’m going to be hurt badly. Also I don’t think Barry loves me like that yet. *sighs* I mean he loves me clearly (not sounding pigheaded just you know its not my fault its true, atleast I hope it is) but he doesn’t love, true love me. But you know it takes time and well atleast he does love me in someway. I don’t know. I JUST DON’T KNOW ANYMORE!

My whole life has just gone upsy turby and bad. I gained weight because of the whole 2 months that my “friend” didn’t come over. So I need to get excercising. I need to start my homework for school next year. Lol, yeah I have summer home work. I say this while smiling because I’m a total dork and think its cool. All though when it comes to actually doing it thats a whole other scenario.

Anyway, I saw Teen Witch and omg that brought up so many memories of my child hood. Well it did when my sister started remembering all the shows she watched and couldn’t name them and I named them for her.

Oh my god, I miss Sammy so much. Sammy was my best friend. We called her our cousin cause Sammy, my sis, and me where inseperable. We were so close. Crazy how when we moved to that house it took me 3 months to have the courage to talk to her. Its insane. Shes year older then my sis well kinda. Same year 1994 but she was born in Feb and my sis in Dec. So almost a year. I love Sammy. She was our neighbor our bestfriend and so much more. My sis and I got these ugly hair cuts when we were kids and when Sammy saw she was all like omg I want my hair like that. She tried cutting her own hair and she was like 4 or littler. We looked like tripplets. We did everything together spend the night at well her house. Sammy got scared spending the night and well it didnt matter cause we live next door to each other. We would go to Don Jimmys house on the other side of my house and play on his mary-go-round because he let us sense noone used it more then us. We would pretend we were on a train running from a hurricane or just spin it fast and faster. We always pretended we had these powers. I miss it and this is where my story line comes. I have a story a plotline we mad up as a group. Of what we played and Its so silly but I think its really good. I wish it were true. Then none of this would matter cause I’d still be who I was then.  We moved and I’ve hardly ever spoken to Sammy. Not cause I can’t call her or write her or talk to her. But because it is just difficult for me. Did I mention her family was like mine? My best friend my age was Lauren, Sammy’s cousin. We were all close cousin sisters neighbors. I wonder what they are doing now. I think I’m talking too much about this.

*cries*

 Bye bye

Love
-Lex
P.s. HI SAMMY 

~ByPass~ Songs On Now Need To Download
The Automatic Automatic – Monster (Rock Mix)
Dark New Day- Follow The Sun Down
Switchfoot – Oh Gravity
Eve 6- Think Twice
Finch -What It Is To Burn
The Exies – Different Than You
Collective Souls – Hollywood
Evans Blue- Cold (But I’m Still Here)
William Tell- Fairfax (You’re Still The Same)
Paramore – Misery Bussiness
Mellowdrone -Oh My
Operator – Soulcrusher

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Thank You :D

Thank you to everyone who has viewed or is viewing not the greatest blog but atleast I try. Truelly Thank You *HUGS*

So yesterday I got 56 views which is like WOAH! cause I usually get like 1 or 2 but 56! :O, it was weird. I really do appreciat it.

Blog Stats

Total Views: 120

Best Day Ever: 56

Views today: 5 (AVERAGE HIGHEST)

!Lex!-Appreciated much.

Hey

        So no diary just Fast Facts and thoughts, also no grammar just typing and if it gets so sloppy I’ll edit it. Also just THOUGHTS! So no flow just me.

• In the alley with the….-  Bad Cops Bad Charities – Play Radio Play
• I vote in 2008 and I’m a democrat and politics is what people like to read so here you go!
• Also I think I’ll vote for Hillary Clinton. Have a problem tell me why?
• Also why are christians all republicans. They don’t give a crap about politics their followers do what the goverment says and get screwed over.
•  Ha, LIBERTY IS OURS TAKE IT OUR LEAVE IT
• I believe if you want to be a hater, racist, or anything. Your an ass but its your right and I’m not going to stop you because untill you learn why its bad or give me a good reason to act like that your not worth it.
• Crap, is crap. Life is crap. But if you don’t follow your heart your never going to be anything but crap.
• What is with religion and people saying god wants you to give love but always think your religion is better then every one elses. why? whats it worth? i mean really! All religions have like the same basic principles and why do people have to be better then someone else to feel good. God says love and what do we do fight wars because of his name. Wow, that sounds so right. Peace is happiness and tell you all figure out that all you really want is for people to understand you theres not going to be no right way to justify what your doing.
• Also what is up with kids these days. I’m 17 I know I sound ignorant but come on look around my century was like the beginning of the end seriously kids like 7 or 8 are talking about things that are idiotic. Girls are wearing make up and doing adutrery stuff and at 12 we have druggies alcoholics and parents. What kind of planet has this become.? I’m scared for our future. I miss our great ancestors even if their life was harsh and had. They were intelligent
• Why is everyone so interested in Paris Hilton? I mean really who gives a fuck! Some rich girl is going to jail where she gets her own huge cell with a jail mate she picked. OMG!
• Why don’t people talk about things like Darfur? or starving children around the world? or about people in Africa and Asia that need our help?
• Why do people think its ok to have our life styles? We live in a materialistic world where people are going to buy stupid things they won’t use and wasting the low supply of oil and resources we have. Then we’re going to other places to take their supplies. So we do it over and over again to ourselves. Do people not realize that we’re killing our planet and ourselves and we’re still not happy!
• Why don’t people look around them?
• Why?WHY!!!!!
• Sometimes I wonder whether this is what was planned for us and what it was like before and how it could be different
• Although I like saying all this I’m still just like the rest of u…..doing nothing and being an ignorant fool.
• I’m still young and this is why I want to be a lawyer to help people.
• I’ve been on the other side where people got screwed by other people and now I want to help people that been screwed because I’ve gone through it.
• Life isn’t meant to be easy by I damn well won’t let it beat me down.
• I only want happiness for all of us, whoever it is. Can’t we all just get along? That may sound naive, but it is me. I’m NAIVE IGNORANT STUPID IDIOT AND MUCH TOO YOUNG TO UNDERSTAND. But atleast I’m me I trust my soul and it tells me we’re all the same even if people don’t want to believe it. We all deserve happiness, don’t we?
• On lighter news or ramble…..
• LOVE IS EVERLASTING SO HOLD ON TO WHAT YOU GOT. Family, Friends, or Lovers.
• My party is tomorrow!
• I trust that I won’t grow out of this stage, if I do slap me!
• I’m so anti-social and I love it
• So i’m lonelly but I have my family and their my best friends. How cheesy is that?
• People ruin things BUT YOU GET OVER IT.
• I’m nothing without my laptop *huggles it*
• All MUST listen to “Lean on Sheena” by The Bouncing Souls!
• So I spend like no time yesterday watching youtube videos and when I came back I watched all my subscribed and I’m getting bored with having alot of elitest youtubers. I never really thought about it. So anyway got someone for me to watch!
• Dead Or Alive the movie is good. I haven’t seen it fully. But its not totally awefull. Best part is the most hilarious one with the daughter and dad where he walks in and the other girl in the daughters room in bed with the daughter is there.
  “Dad get out I’m in my underwear”-Daughter
  “Its time to fight”- or something IDK -Dad
  Blah Blah Blah
  “You should sleep naked like I do”- Other Girl
  “Ah….I’ll leave you and your friend to it”-Dad
  He leaves and daughter kicks OGirl out of bed and OGirl has clothes on.
  If you don’t get it, its suppose to sound like the other girl was saying their girlfriends to like freak out the dad. Kinda IDK it was funny you must see.
• My legs are a sleep wonderfull. *Gets up and Jumps around*

I think this entry is done for, Tootles Love!
~Lex
PS. Sorry for dullness:P
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