So today’s horoscope says this…

Gemini

Getting through the day may be tougher than you thought it would be — especially if some rather distressing news arrives. Just don’t try to avoid the situation. It won’t work, so be brave, meet it head on and deal with it. That means no calling in sick to work, no asking to leave early and no dragging yourself through the day pouting. Be brave, be meticulous and take care of business like the mature, responsible grownup you are.

Really grown up? Me? Damn it! Yes, I did think it would be easy seems it won’t my darling family will object to that. Deal with it? I won’t I’m having a party and no one is coming. Deal?! Hah…..

Excerpt: Another day as another year goes by.

Hey,

Long time no see… Updates? Not many. This whole year has been odd to say the least. Its my senior year and I’m graduating, as such drama and lots of it. The best time of your life is high school. Ha, yeah right! The worst time of your life is in high school. Its suppose to be a fabulous year of many deeds and yet its not. Its filled with pressure, drama, and resentment. See, now that I’m graduating I wish I had done a lot of things that I didn’t do. Its the end of my youth its upsetting. I wish what most don’t. I like being the baby! I like having people fuss over me, and take care of me. I don’t do work and I’m selfish and lazy. Growing up, sucks! It means that you can no longer depend on your parents. It means all those annoying things they did for you, you have to do. Please, don’t wish to grow up. It isn’t really about being selfish and lazy. Its just that the things you could get away with youth, the memories, and complete ignorance of the world I wish. Life’s a bitch, and to growing up means you have to deal with this. Having been a youth, I know that I’d prefer my ignorance of all the horrid, vile, and despicable things that happen in the world. Another thing is my era, my generation is well doomed. The economy seems to be crashing and as the negative person I am I believe we are at a high risk of another Great Depression or War World III. Not only that but depletion of resources and increase in disease, is well scary, think of “Children of Men” the movie. So I’m really discouraged in becoming an adult as all this occurs. Plus, I just don’t feel like I’m prepared for it. I know I’m whining, but can’t help what you are.

I was going to discuss a serious topic, but I lost my mind. Literally, I don’t remember what I was going to say. YEESH!!

I’ll see you all tomorrow maybe. An update a day? That would be sweet if I wasn’t the lazy type of person, that I am.

Marked 01 – PC Cast

Is the corporation LIN slow or what? Why should Time Warner pay them more?

I mean is it just me, because the dispute between LIN and Time Warner is ridiculous. Why should Time Warner pay them more even if it is a little bit of money out of their pocket?

Ok, so for me in Ohio its branded as

CW or WWHO

, its basic cable. Cable that if you had no cable company you could still watch because its like 1 of 8 channels that is on for free.

Free, remember that

. So they want to get paid by cable corporations for them airing their already free channel.

My opinion is why should they get paid if its airing for free? I say just when you want to watch the channel unplug the TV and use an antenna. Oh yeah Time Warner also tells you to do that themselves, while giving away antennas to their customers, during this “black out.” That’s what people are calling it. If you don’t want to do that, you could always watch the episodes on the computer because CW shares their programming on their site. Still not happy? Its probably illegally by other people on youtube upload the episodes. Its illegal but it is not like you put the footage on the internet, you didn’t download it, you went to a site and it was there…I’m getting side tracked I’ll discuss the illegal copy right issue after my LIN argument.

I just don’t understand, they’re trying to get their “viewers” to switch from Time Warner to Dish. Going as far as to make a contract where you get $50 “incentive” for switching, which is not bad. But all this hassle for a free channel. My opinion is I don’t side with either side because LIN is being greedy and so is Time Warner. Why should people pay for free service? If LIN doesn’t like it remove their channel from the free airwaves and create a pay to see online programming viewing thing. Things are expensive and I understand the value of a dollar, I don’t want to pay more even if it is a small amount for my cable service. Worst I don’t want to pay more for a channel I barely watch, except for Gossip Girl, and a channel that I can get for free. I also don’t want to switch.

The channel over all is no great lose for me. I can rely with it being online. It creates a space for a new channel to air. Its not a mayor lose for Time Warner. Its ridiculous LIN cannot be compared to the size of the Time Warner Cable corporation. Overall this money dispute would only lead more viewers to turn their backs to it and move on to a new channel. Plus, the companies in charge of the programs might even decide to remove their programming from that channel to another channel due to customer availability and lose of ratings. I think they just screwed themselves.

But I get it you need money to live, especially to live well, and by well I mean to succeed in life. However, the company is doomed because they don’t have no control and no power. Worst is that they aren’t getting paid because their channel is FREE, which is all their doing. They could have succeed if they had stayed friendly with all instead of being greedy. See they get paid for airing their programming, and for airing the commercials. They get paid for that stuff, and its not too shabby. But they got a head of themselves. Before they went on strike for money, they should have had high ratings like those of channels that do get paid and aren’t free networks. Examples of are those of Disney, MTV, E!, and others.

Basicly What I Am Saying To LIN is:

Stop fighting for a ridiculous reason, and get a hold of yourselves. Don’t ask Time Warner for money you aren’t going to get it until your important, which your not. Behave and slowly take over the ratings then hit them low for the money.

Do you feel like the world, the sun, everything revolves around you?

It watches your steps commenting, yet seeking more in your actions.

You can’t help being human and thinking your the center ofattention and wanting more.

I am human.

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I love the way I think that everyone is watching me,
And yet I don’t want to be seen by anyone.
Hidden in my own dispare and joy.
I like being me
And if people see that I’m me,
And not them,
Not what people want me as.
Why should I fear it?

I want to be that girl,
That you smile at from across the room,
And you can’t keep your eyes off.
But I also want to be that girl,
That you can’t see invisible,
And hidden.

Even though I’m standing their infront of you
Because if you see that then you know
That I can be anything
And anyone I chose to be.

My dream guy would not be Edward Cullen.
My dream guy would be you.
In your mistakes and mishaps just you,
My beloved.

You know when I think back to our best moments.
I think of you and me
Just talking.

For four hours, five minutes, days.
It doesn’t matter where, when, or how long.
As long as its just you and me.

You mean everything to me.

- Lex

Going to school! I’m in love with oh oh oh sexy vampire by fright rangers. I’m 17 turning 18 and life has only made me feel like dying. I love you all! I miss Barry and when people ask me about him, I don’t know what to say. I like the calmness of having people not knowing because then it gets complicative. Like Idk. I have to go

Everythings…is better. Its all ‘All Right.’ I hope I think.

So thoughts, because I feel tired, exhausted, drunk, and dazed. Hopefully thoughthe meds will work and I’ll be back to myself soon enough.

I was thinking of you
I was dreaming of you
I wondered about you

In this life we live,
In the shadows we hide
I just can’t believe
Everything was so out of sight.

I missed you
With all my heart
Even through
Hours, Minutes, and Seconds.

You were my only thought.
You will always be my only thought.
I live to be with you

Now
And I don’t know
What it would be like
To live without you.

I’d rather die
Then never have you around.
Never to be with you

To be held by you
To be touched and caressed
To be in love
To feel everything is just right

I’d much rather die in your arms at your side.

I guess I’ve been fooling myself for far too long. Its only been a couple hours, but I can’t deny the fact I have been running from it. So, me and B fought again. You all are probably going “about what? whats the big deal?” I haven’t an idea what we fought about. :’( He was acting strange. His never cussed at me even when I have him. His a gentle even when I’m a rude bitch. He came on and I poked some fun at him for coming on late as I always do. Then he was like fu and something stupid normal guys say he said. He said “your mom.” I was shocked, appalled, and taken a back. He has never just acted and blurted something out like that maybe, if I had started. But I didn’t it was weird, he was being rude to me, I got offended and he sent me his picture of the building he was working on. I said it was awful, and bye because I didn’t like his attitude. He left though he was like why do I even bother. I didn’t say it to hurt his feelings not exactly I just said it because he’d been mean to me. Am I wrong?

lex

Hi…um everybody who reads this. If anyone ever does. *sighs pathetically*

Life has yet to be any more interesting then usual and sense I can barely explain why it is so. Due to stupid things like law issues. Ok, not law issues just I try to keep at least some spice into what I know.

Just so who ever reads this and gets confused I’m watching dot hack sign, so just a little distracted. I should really be getting ready for school. But I’m not and its no big deal.

*stretches and yawns*

My laptop is absolutely dead. I have no clue what happened exactly. However the charger is dead!!!! *cries* Also, I can’t obtain a new laptop till June. Way too long, but I guess I’ll just have to move on.

~Interupted by Mom calling even though she left 10 min. ago!

Latest Updates of life

• I watched all of “The Girl From Tomorrow.”
  I’m writing a book type of thing with a friend. – Its still untitled.
  I have to go to school and its  graduation testing for sophmore’s and freshman. So as a junior I only have to go for AP Reviews and I don’t really have to shadow. But I’m still going in the morning for the movies just to hang out with friends.

I’ll have to finish this later I have to finish getting ready.

Love ya, LEX

 original 1/19/2008 

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i’m so going to kill someone im so going to renninson or w.e her name even though she is awesometastic author

i want my last installment of confessions of georgia nicolson

OMG OMGoodygoodgod ROBBIE MASIMO ROBBIE DAVE MASIMO ROBBIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

*TEARS TEARS COLLAPSES